12:22 AM
i am settled into a comfortable ritual of listening to music at night in silence. i have often wondered what will happen to this ritual once you are here. i know i will feel the need for this retreat into music. i have thought perhaps i can introduce you to this ritual of mine but i am not certain how that will happen. I have read in the tale of genji how the king and the queen played music for each other. but…do I dare dream such dreams? shall we listen to the same music in silence? or shall you be attending to other activities as i listen to music? it’s not something i can visualize. not yet.
12:11 PM
I am at the keyboard again. As time passes by, the idea of actually turning this letter project into reality is gaining firmer ground in my mind. It feels normal and okay. I don’t feel doubts or apprehensions of mockery from outsiders.
Shall I tell you a bit about the pragmatic aspects? Is it too early?
I didn’t finish university. I got into NSU in EEE in 2010. I checked out of there with no forwarding address 2.5 years later. An ex-prisoner from Shawshank might fondly remember the prison once in a while, but I have no fondness or memories of that place. I liked the library though- good books. That library introduced me to Tagore, Csikszentmihalyi, Rumi, and Erich Fromm.
I taught myself programming, statistics, probability, real analysis and machine learning later using Coursera and just books. I liked learning things on my own.
As for work, I teach. I teach at a school, at a coaching center that I started a few years ago and some tuitions. I don’t intend to remain a teacher throughout my entire life. Not only as a teacher. That can stay but i need to express other aspects of my being in a different avenue- I am not certain what those avenues will be but I feel an inkling and gradually they will become clearer or so I hope.
how do you pass your days? how do you deal with your boredom? what does a day in your life look like? which parts of the city are you treading now as i write these words?